Laughter and Tears

Laughing through the tears

Crying behind the smile

I know that I am healing

I know it takes awhile

But knowing what to do

Before I reach that goal

Is often quite a struggle

And often takes it's toll

The battle makes me weary

Often I feel drained

But I keep moving forward

Fighting to be unchained

So I will keep on crying

Collecting all my tears

And I will keep on laughing

Dispelling all my fears

For there will come a day

About my tears I'm asked

I will simply smile and say

That is just my past



The path to healing is the most difficult path I walk.  There are no maps, no guides not even a compass.  I am the only one who has ever walked this particular path.  And though I have walked it before as my life, I find roadblocks all along the way.  Sometimes I find things along the path that I have hidden so well that I have forgotten they were there.  At times I have attempted to alter the path to avoid the shadows, let alone the wounds of particular events.  Some days the task before me looms over my soul.  All I want to do is stop where I am and call it good.

But I am determined to keep moving.  I want to know what whole feels like.  It is my desire to know a peace within me that cannot be shaken.  I want to experience a life free of shadows.  I want to step into the warmth of the sun.  I want to heal.  And so I go on.

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