Ramblings by Dawn: September 2011

Friday, September 30, 2011

Walla Walla

walla walla

so many voices

in my head

and yet

nothing

nada

zip

zilch

zero

bubkus

no profound thoughts

no thoughts

at all

absence of thought

and yet

buzzing

oblivion

total blackout

complete void

my head is empty

and yet overflowing

with white noise

so now what

my heart shall speak

of love

compassion

understanding

kindness

acceptance

endurance

trust

love speaks

when there is nothing else to say.

Sometimes the best voice of love is the one after you run out of flowery speech and clever poetry.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Fly A Kite

life

a kite

blowing in the wind

tossed to and fro

sailing through the skies

among the clouds

among the stars

i would float away

if not for love

Life throws us around. Sometimes because of choices we have made. Sometimes just because it is life. I am thankful for those who love me. I would be lost without them. And I hope that I can offer a string of hope to those I love.

Strange Bird

strange bird

rose colored glasses

eccentric

slanted view

free agent

unique vision

quirky

yes i am

all these things

and my life

is filled

with love

and wonder

I have often been accused of not fitting in. I have been called many names over the years. And I am the lucky one, for I love my world. Do you love yours?

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Leisurely Walk

wind in the trees

cool breezes

leisurely walk

babbling of a fountain

chirping birds

children laughing

dogs barking

ducks floating by

an intoxicating moment

on a beautiful fall day

I love peaceful moments that reenergize my heart. Feeling stressed, frantic, out of sorts take a walk. It does a body good. Happy trails.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Monkey

I spent the day with my oldest son, Marc creating a birthday cake for Alexandra's party. Tonight I am making myself available for advice and encouragement as Jaimee' makes a pirate dress for Alexandra. Tomorrow the family gathers to celebrate her second birthday. It is amazing how a child so small reminds you on a daily basis what is important in life. Her smile, her laugh, her hugs remind each of us of the incredible capacity to love. I am thankful for my little monkey. And I am truly blessed to have a loving family and incredible friends. My life is full because of love.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

I Am

i am the center

of my universe

i plot my course

i determine my path

i assign my value

i decide who i am

i accept responsibility

i select my destiny

to allow someone else

to be my center

is to lose my identity

to permit someone else

complete power

is to lose my own

i am

because

i choose

All too often we allow someone or something to become the very center of our life. To do so is to allow our energy, our identity, our very being to be consumed. We should always keep our center. To lose ourselves in someone or something is to do a disservice to ourselves and those around us.

Do you love someone so much that you have lost your individuality? Then you offer them far less than you are capable of giving. To give your very best to others in your life, love yourself first. Keep your center. Take control of your own being. Direct your own energy. Be all you can be, love yourself and let the love flow through you to others.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Fish In The Sea

so many fish in the sea

so many choices

so many opportunities

so many people to be in your life

so many fish in the sea

which is great...

unless you are a turtle

I cannot even tell you the number of times I have been told "there are plenty of fish in the sea". While this may be true, I have never felt like a fish. Nor have I been searching for a fish. Some things in our life are one of a kind. Some things cannot be replaced by just anything that swims by. For me it seems prudent to acknowledge the unique and special place that a particular person or event has in my heart. I cannot replace them. So I will always hold them close to my heart.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

If

what if

if only

shoulda

coulda

woulda

what if

if only

what if

if only

regardless of which decision i make

i am left with what if

regardless of which way i turn

i am left with if only

there will always be a woulda

always a shoulda

always a coulda

if is such a small word

but it is the heart and soul of life

Launched into existence

Ending guaranteed

and in between

is a world full of IF

life

We make so many decisions because we fear being haunted by "what if" when we don't. We spend too much time looking back and thinking "if only". When the truth is "what if" and "if only" cannot be avoided. The perfect life is full of "if". The perfect life is owning the choices that you make. The perfect life is learning from each step. The perfect life is taking chances. The perfect life is rejoicing each step of the way. It is time to embrace "what if" and "if only", there are the badges of the perfect life.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Language of a Tear

a single tear

speaks of my joy

relieves my pain

when overwhelmed

a single tear

when i am sad

tells of the beauty

that i see

a single tear

reflects my heart

flows from my soul

tells of the secrets

that i hold

a single tear

the rushing wind

screaming loud

anguish filled

still unheard

a single tear

a gift for you

hold it close

don't let go

for it is love

from me to you

How many times have you had questions for those you love? How many times do they answer with a tear? So often we get frustrated or irratated waiting for an answer we understand. Perhaps the answer is greater than any words. Perhaps it's time to learn the language of a tear.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Unconditional

love

a true love

an unconditional love

causes pain

wounds and scars

the heart

a heart

a true heart

an unconditional love

will heal

bind the wounds

and love again

a heart

a fearful heart

an unscathed heart

will shrivel

will never know

the wonders of love

To offer unconditional love, does not mean blindly leaping into the fire. It is natural to be cautious when you have been hurt. I prefer to learn, grow and continue to love. To offer less than unconditional is to make a mockery of the beauty of love.

Unconditional love does not mean going back and trying to recapture what you have lost. It is forgiveness, believing in the possibilities, encouraging the best in the one you love. It is moving bravely into the future by building on past experiences.

Unconditional love does not ignore the lessons learned, nor does it dismiss the reality and limitations of those you love or yourself. Love does accept the imperfections and quirks. Love does imagine a healing beyond measure. For that is the power of unconditional love.

I know that some do not understand. I know that some do not agree. But for me, unconditional love is my only option. To deny my heart is to deny who I am. To deny my heart is to reject my calling. To deny my heart is to choose a death I could not bear. I must choose unconditional love, for it is the beat of my heart, the light in my soul and my very purpose on this earth.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Little Things

it is the little things

that i remember

it is the small gestures

that make my day

it is the brief moments

that change my outlook

it is the slight smile

that brightens the sun

it is the tiny giggles

that lighten my heart

it is the quiet whisper

that calms my fears

it is the little things

that build my life

I often push myself from one big moment to another. When I miss the little things along the way, my big moments lose their shine. Emptiness fills my being. Today I am collecting the little things.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Bend

life twists

life turns

bend with the wind

go with the flow

ride the waves

zig and zag

adjust

paint with passion

compassion

kindness

empathy

love

and claim a beautiful heart

The world turns and the universe inundates us with challenges. We make choices, some good, some not so good. What our life ultimately looks like fully depends upon what we choose to do with it. It is never too late. We can always change our course. Believe in yourself and let your beauty shine.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Profound

to experience extraordinary

to perceive passion

to percipitate the profound

wander within the whispers

your heart will lead the way

Monday, September 12, 2011

Random

a squirrel outside my window

what an interesting world

we are all connected

the cat is chewing on plastic

energy is neither created

nor destroyed

i am lonely

children laughing

i love the sound of water

the ducks seem so peaceful

i want to matter

somewhere someone is crying

i wonder if we have chocolate

i am excited about tomorrow

the soft breeze comforts me

a bird flew by my window

somewhere someone is in despair

i am vulnerable

the scream of a teapot

the silence of the night

i wonder where i fit in

what can i do

a chipmunk on my porch

a distant siren

i wonder can you feel me

if i sent love your way

would you know it

i am reaching for something

i will know it

when i touch it

we are all connected

we are all alone

do you see me reaching

the sun is setting low

love is in the air

behind the hurt and fear

transforming

a new thought

a better world

So many thoughts, so many observations flood each of us every moment of every day. And though they may seem random they all become a part of you. You are the manifestation of randomness. May you experience and share love randomly...it makes us all better.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Remember

Remember. I remember where I was when the first tower was hit. Don't you? A single day that changed our world. A single day that shook our security. A single day that introduced vulnerability to the world. A single day that taught the world the meaning of terror.

As I watch the coverage on this, the tenth anniversary, I relive the terror, the fear, the sadness of that day. My heart will always remember.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Disposable

love that depends

on if you do

when you do

or because you do

is simply a facade

love that does not

allow for change

or growth

becomes a wall

that is doomed

to crumble

love that relies

on actions

love that is created

with expectations

is a fantasy

that you will

wake from

love changes

love grows

love encourages

love builds

love forgives

love stands alone

love expands

love flows

true love is unconditional

unconditional love lives on

A disposable love is not really love. A disposable love is grasping for a dream. A disposable love will leave you wounded. A disposable love is desperation and sadness. The world needs more unconditional love.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Love-filled Life

what is life

without love

a two dimensional

existence

a simple journey

with no destination

an empty vessel

dry and cracking

a kite with no string

a life

with love

becomes vibrant

a life with purpose

a seam in the fabric

of the universe

love is the stuffing

the cream filling

the beauty of life.

Love comes in so many forms. A parents love, a child's love, a friends love, a pet's love. And every person that we invite into our life offers their best understanding of love. Love is not easily defined for it has so many different manifestations. But love is definitely the best part of life. It gives meaning to every aspect. Fill your life with love, and discover the best the world has to offer.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Time Passing

The last few days I have been very aware of how fast time passes. So many things remind me that it stops for no one. I can no longer count the number of gray hairs on my head. I don't remember when it became a chore to sit on the floor or worse yet to get up from there. I can't remember when I decided to slow down and look around. I don't know what happened to my little children or when they suddenly became adults. Wasn't it just yesterday they were babies?

I know it was only hours ago that Alexandra was born. And yet, this month she celebrates her second birthday. How did she go from the infant who was learning to smile to the child who speaks in sentences? When did she become a little girl with a will of her own?

As I look at Alexandra, I am taken back to the time when my children were two. On their second birthday, I measured their height and doubled it. As a mother I wanted to know whatever I could about their future. As I look back now, I see the beginnings of some of their finest traits as adults. I also am very aware of how things have happened throughout their lives that have altered the two year olds that I held in my arms.

These reflections remind me that this is the moment to offer comfort, direction, encouragement. It can't wait. It can't be put off. Time passes too quickly to go back and fix it. The time for love and kindness is now. The time is every moment of every day for they are flying by.

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