Thursday, June 30, 2011

Beauty In The Darkness

Beauty in the darkness
Although the day seems bleak
With just a bit of light
I see life's strange mystique

Coolness in the waves
That beat upon the shore
Something almost comforting
And silence in their roar

And though the sand keeps shifting
The path seems somewhat firm
Building on the memories
And lessons that were learned

Thankful for this moment
Thankful for this view
Hope lighting the future
And I'm just passing through

Sometimes we are so overwhelmed by the darkness that we fail to see the beauty of it.  Darkness offers a chance to re-evaluate, sort out and decide without all of the distractions we see in the light.  Sometimes our darkest times bring our most significant lessons.  Find comfort in the darkness.



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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Enchanted Forest







Living in a forest
It's hard to see the sun
Everything looks tangled
Webs of confusion spun

Living in a forest
Direction is unknown
For the paths are covered
And things are overgrown

Living in a forest
Silence becomes deafening
Darkness all consuming
Awaiting the day of reckoning

Living in a forest
Struggling to get out
Looking for a compass
Taking a new route

But living in a forest
Need  not be troublesome
For whimsy weaves it's golden tail
To chase away the glum
Living in a forest
Offers treasures yet unseen
Adventures to experience
Lessons to be gleaned


 
Sometimes we get lost in our own little world.  We get so tangled in our own mental anguish that our realities get distorted.  It is time for enchantment.



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Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Amidst the Chaos

Standing amidst the chaos
That some would call my life
Things I can't control
Some of my own device

Standing amidst the chaos
Looking for the piece
The one that gives me reason
The one that gives me peace

Standing amidst the chaos
Seeing the destruction
And yet amidst the tremors
Behold new construction

Standing amidst the chaos
Flying about my head
I should be discouraged
But I see hope instead

Standing amidst the chaos
Changes in the air
So I take this moment
To ponder and prepare

Sometimes life moves merrily along.  And without warning something happens that throws a wrench in the works.  Chaos reigns.  The difficult part of chaos, not making it worse with my reactions.  Chaos encourages opportunities, a simple change of course, an introduction to more knowledge or a new seed of wisdom.  Learning to ride the waves of chaos allows me to see all the possibilities before me.  It allows me to appreciate those things that I have missed.  So I am learning to embrace the chaos.  While working towards the peace my soul desires.  I am looking for the lessons that this chaos has for me.  And I am preparing to let go of the chaos.  I am preparing to embrace the peace and love that my heart and soul are thirsting for. 



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Monday, June 27, 2011

Angles


Looking at all the angles
Searching for what's right
Changing my direction
Finding a new light
Hoping for some insight
Some guidance along the way
I am growing weary
Of letting come what may
Time to make some choices
Time to take a stand
This life that I am living
Is not the one I planned

Though my life has color
And stories I could tell
I want to make a difference
I want to live life well

As I go along in life, I make choices that determine the path of my life for awhile.  And then abruptly, it is no longer where I belong.  I am not always sure what changed or why it changed.  I just know, time for a change.  I feel the change coming from my very soul.  And while some things I have no control over, I still have a say in my reactions and my decisions.  Time to start a realignment process.  Time to try a new angle.  How long will the new direction last?  That cannot be determined.  But I will be moving forward and no longer waiting as life passes me by.




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Sunday, June 26, 2011

Blowing In The Wind

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They say the answer is blowing in the wind
Well I have been twisting in the wind
Occasionally I get wind of the answer
And then it is gone with the wind
Sometimes I don't know which way the wind blows
Sometimes an ill wind makes me run like the wind
Sometimes I am fighting against the wind
Sometimes I am between wind and water
Some things take the wind out of my sails
Sometimes I throw caution to the wind
Sometimes I just whistle in the wind
But I know there is something in the wind
And when I get my second wind
I will once again be in the wind


I don't have all of life's answers.  But I know that life, like the wind continues to blow.  And the answers are in the living.  So off I go to discover more answers.  Care to join me?




Copyright 2011 Ramblings by Dawn.  All rights reserved.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

The Web


A web of choices
A web of voices

A web of decisions
A web of visions

A web of memories
A web of enemies

A web of trends
A web of friends

A web of things I've fought
A web of my own thoughts

A web of words
A web of the unheard

A web of feeling
A web of healing

A web of strife
This is my life


I have moments in my life when I feel like I am fighting my way out of a web of chaos.  Some of the chaos I can't control.  However, I have come to realize that much of my chaos I have created.  Some of the things that I fight against are a direct result of my own choices, or my stubborn determination to not make a choice.  Sometimes by trying to avoid choosing I have, in fact, made my choice. 

The big question, how do I get out of this web?  I know that I am tired of fighting.  I am tired of wrestling with all my thoughts in my dreams.  I am tired of feeling trapped.  Consequently, I think that I will try to sit quietly and observe my life from outside the chaos.  Perhaps if I quit fighting so hard, some of the web will just fall away.  We shall see.



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Friday, June 24, 2011

The Door To My Heart


The door to my heart
Was tattered and torn
The windows were broken
The hinges were worn

The time has come
To do some repairs
Replace the windows
Mend the tears

The time has come
To oil the hinges
Fix the windows
Sand the ledges

And then I'll add
Some brand new colors
Maybe even
Make it taller

Prop it open
Invite you in
Let my love
Be new again

Sometimes when I open my heart to others, I become tattered and worn.  Sometimes opening the door allows pain and disappointment to saturate my heart.  After awhile I close and lock the door.  I am afraid to open the door to anyone else.  The door to my heart becomes weathered and is difficult to open. 

To avoid bitterness and indifference taking over my life I have to let go of the hurts and disappointments of my past.  I have to allow healing to repair the door to my heart.  I have to let the wonderful colors of new experiences paint my heart's door.  It is time to revive my heart, and let love be new again.




Copyright 2011 Ramblings by Dawn.  All rights reserved.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Dreaming



Dreaming...
Sunshiny days
Trees to climb
Flowers to pick
Puppies to chase

Dreaming...
Adventures ahead
Games to play
Places to go
Things to see

Dreaming...
Mountains to climb
Rivers to cross
Caves to explore
Paths to follow

Dreaming...
A better day
A better life
A better time
A better world 
Dreaming...

Dreams...the driving force in many of us.  If you dream it, you can do it.  Dreams are the hopes we hold in our heart.  All of our conveniences, all of our medical advances, all of our adventures were once dreams.  Dreams are vital to our well being.  In order for dreams to come true we must act.

My dream is to touch the lives of those around me.  My dream is to spread a little love wherever I go.  My dream is to help heal the world.  What will I do today to make my dreams come true?




Copyright 2011 Ramblings by Dawn.  All rights reserved.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

The Tie-Dyed Heart

















One day my heart
Was tied in knots
Twisted tight
And all bunched up

Then a friend
Gave me a call
We talked and laughed
About nothing at all

They offered kindness
And understanding
A little love
Were not demanding

The knots began
To melt away
All my troubles
Now at bay

Now I have
A tie-dyed heart
Thanks to love
A work of art

What an incredible experience to tie-dye with a child almost two years old.  We had a wonderful time.  I am not sure whether Alex or the shirt has more dye on it.  As we were working on the project I was thinking about how simple moments like this add color to our lives.  No rhyme or reason to the pattern, and yet a beautiful finished project.  We don't always have control over what life throws at us.  But, we do have control over how we deal with it.  Whatever comes, may it add color to our lives. 




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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Love-a-lot


If I lived in Care-A-Lot
I would be a bear
I think that I'd be Love-a-lot
Then my heart I'd share

I'd wear my heart on my shirt
For all the world to see
I'd dispel all those that hurt
And set the sad hearts free

My message would be simple
Let others see your heart
People would just giggle
And think I'm really smart

Fundamental lesson
Childlike to it's core
The answer to love's question
Is simply to explore

Love without condition
Have no expectations
Release all your suspicion
Exercise your patience

Love as your ambition
Love just like a child
Have no inhibitions
Let your heart run wild


When do we learn about tough love?  When do we learn that love hurts?  When do we learn that love means sacrifice?  Wouldn't it be great if we could clean out our heart?  Wouldn't it be wonderful to love freely and unconditionally like a child?  Love is love after all.



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Monday, June 20, 2011

What's In Your Cup


Cup of coffee
Cup of tea
Cup of sugar
Cup of me

Cup of joy
Cup of sad
Cup of love
Cup of bad

Cup of regrets
Cup of success
Cup of the worst
Cup of the best

Cup that's empty
Cup that's full
Cup that's cracked
Cup overflows

Cup of peace
Cup of tears
Cup of wisdom
Cup of years

I have one cup
Unlike the rest
So I deserve
The very best

Each life unique.  Every one looks different.  And the experiences that we have fill our lives.  We must filter out the "grounds".  The rest stays in our cup.  What are you allowing to fill your cup?





Copyright 2011 Ramblings by Dawn.  All rights reserved.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Daddy's Hands


They surround you
When you're small
They pick you up
When you fall
They hold you close
When it storms
When it's cold
They keep you warm
They steady you
As you learn to walk
They applaud you
As you learn to talk
They direct you
As you grow
They teach you how
To climb and throw
They fix the things
That you break
They teach you how
To give and take
They gently guide you
As you grow
Show you things
That you should know

When things don't go
As you planned
Just reach out
Hold daddy's hand

I have the privilege of being the daughter of the finest man I have ever known.  He is my gentle giant.  When he walks in his presence fills the room.  Though he is a tall man it is not his stature that is most astounding.  It is his heart.  He is gentle and kind.  He is understanding and compassionate.  He reaches out to those around him.  Protects those he loves.  Stands firm in his convictions.  He is a good man.  And he is a great father.  My daddy, my hero. 

Happy Father's Day daddy.  I love you.



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Saturday, June 18, 2011

Break

When I reach a breaking point
It's time to break away
When I feel like breaking down
It's time to make a break for it
When I feel like breaking up
Better to break free
When my day seems so very long
Time to take a break
When a task seems to overwhelm
Time to break it up

I'm not superman
I don't wear a cape
Time to give myself a break

Today I woke up just wanting to have a different kind of day.  I thought about all the things I should be doing.  I thought about my normal routine.  But I just was not feeling it.  So today I gave myself a break.  I changed my day around.  I did some things I wanted to do.  I accomplished a few things that were on the have to do list.  I spent some time with friends.  I met some new friends.  Need a break, take one.



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Friday, June 17, 2011

Flashback

Flashback
Blinding my sight
Flashback
It lights the night
Flashback
Pierces my heart
Flashback
Gives me a start
Flashback
Brings back the pain
Flashback
Befuddles my brain
Flashback
I start to fall
Flashback
Mistakes recalled
Flashback
A stumblng block
Flashback
Turns back the clock
Flashback
Truth revealed
Flashback
I need to heal

As a part of my healing journey I have been trying to be open to the hurts from my past.  I want to get past all of mistakes, all my poor choices and all the wrongs I have been holding in my heart.  It sounds like a good idea right?  Until the flashbacks start in my dreams.  Much like watching a bad movie.  And with each flash I feel the pain as if it was yesterday.  Needless to say, it makes for a sleepless night.  With each flash I feeel exposed.  With each flash I feel small.  With each flash I feel worthless.  With each flash I wish I had not let it go so long.  With each flash I pray for relief.  With each flash I shed more tears.  Time for the flashes to stop.  Time to let go of the past.  Time to heal.



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Thursday, June 16, 2011

Welcome


I believe in love
I believe in an open heart
I believe in compassion
I believe in second chances
I believe in kindness
I believe in grace
I believe in trust
I believe in forgiveness
I believe in patience
I believe in hope
I believe in compromise
I believe in understanding

My heart my gift
Wears a welcome sign
Not a welcome mat
To be trod upon
Treat it as such
I will walk away

All too often people misinterpret love. Just because you love someone does not give them a license to walk all over you or your heart.  Yes there will be times that loving someone causes pain.  If both of you grow through the pain then good things follow.  However, if someone takes advantage of your love, if they keep trambling on your heart then time to walk away.  If someone does something totally disregarding your heart and your feelings then time to walk away.  At times walking away benefits them and your heart the most.  Walking away though difficult and painful protects your heart from severe damage.   Best to walk away and live to love another day.

Does your heart wear a welcome sign?  Does your heart have a welcome mat?  Guard your heart it holds the best of you.




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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Capturing a Moment










A moment in time
Merely a glance
This moment in time
Could be your chance

You can take pictures
And buy souveniers
To remember this moment
All through the years

Hold onto this moment
It may be the one
Once this moment passes
It can't be undone

So capture this moment
It goes by so fast
Treasure it now
It could be your last

Today as I look back over my life, I am saddened.  How many moments have I allowed to slip by, not realizing their importance?  How many opportunities have I missed by not living in the moment?  Sometimes I get so caught up in the struggle of today, the pains of yesterday or the uncertainty of tomorrow that I miss the treasures of this very moment.  I am only guaranteed this moment.  Yesterday's gone, be it good or bad.  Tomorrow's uncertain.  How can I capture this moment?



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Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Recipe of Life


A lot of love
A little kindness
Some understanding
And independence
Add some joy
Lots of laughter
A few mistakes
A few disasters
A lot of strength
Add some wisdom
And lessons learned
Add some patience
And hard knocks
Knead the dough
Let it rise
Add some warmth
Don't let it burn
Each life unique
The parts you choose
The seeds you sow
Make's your life
Your own

You are in charge of what you add to your life.  You have a choice in how your life goes.  Yes, life will throw you curves.  Yes life will beat you about a bit.  But how you choose to react is your choice.  What will your life look like?  Are you adding good things to the lives around you?  What are you accepting from them?
It is your life.




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Monday, June 13, 2011

Fill Your Shoes



Your shirt's too large
Your stride too long
You stand firm
I'm not that strong

You've made choices
You're usually right
I make mine
With you in sight

No ones perfect
Except for you
From what I see
My point of view

I try real hard
To make you proud
My voice gets lost
In the crowd

I try to live
The way you would
I try to do
The things I should

I make mistakes
And always lose
When I try
To fill your shoes

So I will follow
Close behind
Please understand
This life is mine

And though I walk
A different way
I still listen
To all you say

So when I stumble
And start to fall
Please remember
I feel small

Reach out your hand
And help me up
For what I need
Is just your love

I have been blessed to be a part of an incredible family.  I have had the good fortune of knowing several fantastic people in my life.  I have learned so much from all of these people.  I look to them for inspiration and guidance.  And there are times that I wish I could be more like any one of them.  In fact, there have been times that I have tried to do things the way I think they would.  Unfortunately, I usually fail when I try to be something I am not.  I cannot possibly fill their shoes. 

It is one thing to follow someone's example, it is something entirely different to walk in their shoes.  When you try to walk in someone else's shoes, failure is almost guaranteed.  We all have our own shoes, our own path, our own experiences.  And chances are there are people looking to you and trying to fill your shoes.  It would seem that each of us should walk our own path, fill our own shoes and reach out in love to those around us. 



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