Restless

Restless

I'm laying in my bed

Thoughts dancing in my head

My heart is filled with dread

Restless

I try a little reading

Thoughts begin their breeding

My sleep they are impeding

Restless

I try a little snack

My thoughts I try to pack

They keep trickling back

Restless

Turning off the light

My thoughts they soon ignite

Dragging out this night

Restless

I try to read once more

My thoughts begin to roar

I simply want to snore

Restless

Tossing to and fro

My thoughts begin to grow

Frustration overflows

Restless

Exhaustion has set in

Lights begin to dim

Finally sleep will win

Drifting

Alarm begins to ring

Birds begin to sing

This day I must begin

Tonight I try again



I have sleepless nights for one of two reasons.  Either I am trying to pack too much into my days.  Or there is a major shift coming in my life.  And with either option what I need most is a good night's sleep.  It becomes  a vicious circle for me.  I have a restless night.  The next night I don't sleep because I am trying to figure out whether I am overloaded or a change is coming.  The following night I am trying to prepare and arrange my life so I am prepared for what is coming.  The fourth night I spend my time making a list of everything I need to do.  The next night I am trying to determine how to get it all done quickly.  The following night I am trying to pare down my list to only the most important things.  The seventh night I fall into bed and sleep for a few hours from sheer exhaustion.  When I wake up I realize the only thing I can do is take my day one moment, one task, one crisis at a time.  I also realize that I cannot change what the future holds.  All I can do is be the best person I can be at the moment.

So today, I will make my list.  Then I will try to pare it down to the most important things.  Today I will remind myself to take things one at a time.  Today I will remind myself to simply do my best.  Today I will give myself permission to relax.  And tonight, I will sleep.  Hopefully.

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